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His inheritance in the saints” (Ephesians 1:17-18).

FOR ME TO
LIVE IS CHRIST AND TO DIE IS GAIN
By A. Wilson Phillips
Recently while being examined and attended to in
a local hospital, I heard the words, “Sir, you are having a heart attack”;
those words resonated in my spirit and mind. The cardiologist did not say,
“You have had a heart attack,” rather, “You are having (present
tense) a heart attack.” The doctor then said, “We can take you upstairs
and fix it,” (i.e., my heart).
I had come into the ER with my wife because she
had gotten overheated and dehydrated out in the sun. As I was filling out
her paperwork, I experienced severe discomfort and tightness in my chest.
That’s when the medical personnel began to give me some medical attention.
After further consultation with these fine
healthcare people about my immediate concerns of my wife’s wellbeing and
the need to notify some family members about where we were, I signed the
consent papers for them to work on me. The doctors and their trained staff
wheeled my bed toward the elevator and up to the cath lab where they would
do an angiogram.
The Holy Spirit brought to my mind the words of
our Lord:
And I will pray the Father, and He will give
you another Helper
(Comforter)
that He may abide with you forever—the Spirit of truth, whom
the world cannot receive, because it neither sees Him, nor knows Him;
but you know Him, for He dwells with you and will be in
you (John 14:16-17).
Those words “with you” and “in
you” brought a great peace into my heart and mind as I continued to
have conversation with the doctor and nurses who found a blockage, clogged
artery, in my heart. That peace remained throughout my hospital stay and
still remains today.
The medical procedure known as angioplasty was
completed by placing a stent in the coronary artery to help prop open the
clogged artery to keep the blood supply flowing in the heart. This was a
serious matter with which we were dealing.
On the morning after being discharged from the
hospital, the Holy Spirit directed me to revisit the divinely inspired
letter that the apostle Paul wrote to “…all the saints in Christ Jesus
who are in Philippi, with the bishops and deacons” (Phil. 1:1).
Paul was a prisoner in Rome for the defense of
his gospel of grace, the gospel that the Lord had revealed to him.
While under house arrest, he knew that his chains were in Christ
(Phil. 1:13), and the recipients of his gospel knew this too. He was there
by the sovereign will of God. Paul’s knowledge of God gave him
spiritual discernment, and he anticipated his release from
imprisonment to come to them shortly.
Paul gave this divinely inspired testimony:
But I want you to know, brethren, that the
things which happened to me have actually turned out for the furtherance
of the gospel…Christ will be magnified in my body, whether by life or by
death. For to me, to live is Christ, and to die is gain. But if I live on
in the flesh (body), this will mean fruit from my labor; yet what I shall
choose I cannot tell. For I am hard-pressed between the two, having a
desire to depart and be with Christ, which is far better. Nevertheless to
remain in the flesh is more needful for you. And being confident of this,
I know that I shall remain and continue with you all for your progress and
joy of faith (Phil. 1:12, 20-25).
Paul was released from his first imprisonment in
Rome and had more fruitful ministry and activity in writing and
speaking his gospel of grace in the midst of fierce opposition from
Jewish unbelievers and Rome’s ill treatment of Christians. Paul’s kingdom
message made him a target. He lived in constant danger with
life-threatening circumstances.
Paul’s last inspired letter that he wrote to
Timothy from prison (around 64 AD) gives us insight into his ministry’s
end before his transition into heaven.
…the time of my departure is at hand. I
have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the
faith
(2 Tim. 4:6-7).
The Holy Spirit reminded me through these
divinely inspired scriptures that He is sovereign. He is in control,
and I am responsible to hear His voice and obey His leading in my life.
I find deep satisfaction and security in my covenant relationship with
Father God. He is in me and with me. I am in union with
Father God, Jesus my Savior, and His Holy Spirit (John 14:20, 23).
I have been bought at a price. I am here to
glorify God in my spirit and in my body, which are God’s (1
Cor. 6:20). The Holy Spirit has been prompting me to
reevaluate
my priorities following this unexpected incident in
my life.
I will continue to do what Father God has called
me to do. The time of my departure to transition into my spiritual body is
still in my future. Father God is still loving, gracious, and kind in
dealing with me. Like Paul, I trust that I will have fruit from my labors
in Christ. The steps of the righteous are ordered by the Lord. The best is
yet to come.
A. Wilson Phillips is the co-founding and senior
pastor of Abundant Life Covenant
Church.

WHEN MY HEART IS OVERWHELMED
By Richard K. Clark
… When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I (Ps. 61:2).
King David’s circumstances were
about to destroy him, and His heart was maxed out. He was no stranger to
danger, and he had learned by revelation that his God was the only answer.
God-ordained sufferings were instrumental in driving him to the Lord and
fashioning him into a man of faith and worship.
We, along with David, will have
times when our hearts are overwhelmed. God allows His children to
experience testing and suffering to perfect the character of Christ in us.
Through our heart sufferings, we become convinced that we are out of our
league. We were not created to carry our burdens (Ps. 55:22; 1 Pet. 5:7),
and God will see to it that we learn this lesson.
Trust in Him at all times, you people;
Pour out your heart before Him;
God is a refuge for us. Selah (Ps. 62:8).
Though God never leaves His
children, He imparts a special manifestation of His presence to engulf us
during our catastrophic experiences. We know times when we feel numb, and
nothing short of a supernatural intervention will suffice. His living
Spirit-Word surfaces from within our spirits and souls to guide us and
carry us. What the Lord requires of us is to draw near Him… and then to
draw near Him… and then to continually draw near Him!
One of my favorite verses in
the Bible is John14:27—
Peace I leave
with you, My peace I give to you; not as the world gives do I give
to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
As far as I’m concerned, there
is no greater assurance that Christ could have given us than His peace!
The same essence of divine power and presence that Christ functioned with
is ours in Him. As we dial down our minds and emotions and let His Word
dwell in us richly, His peace will calm our troubled souls and be with us
forever.
My soul, wait silently for God alone,
For my expectation is from Him (Ps. 62:5). 
And let the
peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one
body; and be thankful. Let
the word of Christ dwell in you richly in all wisdom, teaching and
admonishing one another in psalms and hymns and spiritual songs, singing
with grace in your hearts to the Lord (Col. 3:15-16).
Richard K. Clark is an associate pastor of Abundant Life Covenant Church.

Brokenness and the Release
of God’ Spirit
By Benjamin Davis
God can use anyone at anytime
to accomplish His purposes. That said, His healing presence is only
released and experienced through His broken vessels—people who willingly
yield to Him and allow Him to have His way with them.
The prophet Isaiah gained
revelation of this truth. He wrote:
For this is what the high and lofty One says—
He who lives forever, whose name is holy:
“I live in a high and holy place, but also with him who is contrite and
lowly in spirit,
To revive the spirit of the lowly and to revive the heart of the
contrite…” (Is. 57:15 NIV).
God has taught and re-taught
this truth to me over the years as I served Him. I remember one specific
time (the story is still humorous in my mind) that He taught this truth to
me in college. I was an R.A. in my dorm and had the responsibility to keep
things under a measure of control. Mostly this meant stopping bouncing
basketballs, rolling bowling balls, slamming doors, and general
running/shouting/wrestling after 10 p.m.
One day I woke up with a
disturbing thought, and I didn’t quite get my thinking right during my
devotional time with the Lord. That thought ended up draining the faith
from my entire day, which made it a long one. I went to class and worked
as usual, but it was without the enthusiasm that comes from a faith-filled
mind and heart. That evening, I was exhausted and went to bed early
(before midnight, which was considered early for our college dorm life).
Around 1 a.m., I woke up to this intermittent running and slamming of
doors, which was a sure sign of potentially damaging pranks. I knew the
area from which it came. There was a group of kids (my peers) that
congregated in that area whose hearts were not toward the Lord. I had
relationships with these peers and had attempted to live the gospel before
them and speak to them as the Lord gave me opportunity.
After listening to the racket
for quite some time, and thus discerning that it was not going to stop on
its own, I decided it was time to go up there and stop it myself. I found
the room where the congregation was and knocked on the door. As the door
opened, I was immediately sprayed in the face with a fire extinguisher. If
you’ve never experienced such, it is difficult to describe how the white
foam from the extinguisher sucks the oxygen out of your mouth, blinds you
for the moment, and generally turns you white as a ghost.
The irony of this predicament
was that the blast from the extinguisher was not meant for me. There was a
small prank war going on, and this room of pranksters thought I was the
enemy, so they sprayed before they looked. From their side, they were
horrified to discover it was me. From my side, God performed a miracle. As
I stood there and received the blast of extinguisher fluid, the cloud of
God’s manifested presence came over me. In one swift moment, He revealed
to me how my day had been robbed of faith because of the lie I had
swallowed early that morning. The revelation of His truth poured over me
as I stood there dumb, mute, and blind.
To finish the story, the
horrified members of that room escorted me to a sink to help me recover
and then vanished as quickly as their limited sense of integrity would
allow. What followed was not revenge, nor retribution of any kind. God had
used it to break me and give me revelation—well worth the cost of the
extinguisher fluid experience. Further, because that group of kids
witnessed a surprising reaction to their blunder, I was set up in a
position to now minister to them and was able to lead many of them over
the next year into experiences with the presence of God.
Jesus said to one of His
closest disciples, “I tell you, Peter, the rooster shall not crow this day
before you will deny three times that you know Me” (Luke 22:34). While
Jesus was on the cross, Peter fulfilled this prophecy, vehemently denying
Jesus three times. After the rooster crowed, Peter wept bitterly and gave
up his calling—returning to his fishing business.
After Jesus’ resurrection, He
appeared to all His disciples, but He had a special walk and talking
session with Peter alone. At the end of their time together, Peter broke
and yielded his life to his Master’s calling. Thus, Peter became a key
apostle in the founding of the early church.
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
A broken and a contrite heart—
These, O God, You will not despise (Ps.
51:17).
For further reading on the
subject of brokenness and the release of God’s presence, I would recommend
the book The Breaking of the Outer Man and the Release of the Spirit
by Watchman Nee.
Benjamin Davis is an associate pastor of Abundant Life Covenant Church

CONTROLLING THE NOISE
Jonathan Clark
Information overload. The Lord
recently showed me that I have to guard against information overload. It
is very easy for me to be overloaded with information. Information is
coming at me from all sides… from all angles… in many different forms.
Some of the information may be useful, but most will not. I suspect that
my information-overloaded lifestyle is similar to most others who have the
privilege of living in our technological age.
If I do not control the
onslaught of information that comes my way, then the information becomes
noise to me. My mind will be noisy and busy trying to process all of the
“good” information. If I don’t control the noise, the noise will control
me. As a matter of fact, patients who can’t sleep often say that they are
having a hard time “shutting down and turning off their minds.”
Be still, and know that I am
God…(Ps. 46:10a)
The problem with a noisy mind
is one can’t hear God. We hear God in silence, not noise. Quietness of
heart and stillness of mind give God the best chance of “getting through.”
If I am spending a majority of my time trying to catch and digest all the
noise, I will usually not be hearing God nor heading in the direction that
He is leading. I may be so busy processing all the good information that I
miss God’s information.
I must take time and dial down,
in stillness and quietness—blocking out the
noise…
hearing God… sleeping well… maintaining good mental health. When I am
quiet with the Lord, I am in a position to
properly discern and effectively digest all
the information that I need.
Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth! (Ps.
46:10)
Jonathan Clark is an elder of Abundant Life Covenant Church and a physician in
Springfield, Missouri.

ENJOYING THE RIDE
By Jeffrey Farinha
Now to Him who
is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think,
according to the power that works in us… (Eph. 3:20).
Our journey of faith is like a
rollercoaster—highs and lows—but God’s love, mercy, faith, and wisdom are
constant.
After a year of marriage, my
wife Cristen and I believed God wanted us to step out in faith and expand
our family. We tried the natural way without success.
We felt we should take the step
to get checked out medically. As we talked with our pastor about our need,
the Lord showed us this was the path that He had for us, and we needed to
listen to what the doctor had to say. After we had the tests, the doctor
recommended taking fertility drugs and then trying invitro-fertilization.
Starting out, we were very excited, but after each of these possibilities
failed, our faith sank. The rollercoaster was definitely dipping.
Continuing on the journey, we
believed we were to lay down our pursuit of having a baby for a time. Then
it came up again, and this time the Lord directed us to look into
adoption. There was a sense of loss, giving up, because we really wanted
our “own” baby. We thought, “Why should we go down this road? Others have
babies the ‘normal,’ supposedly easier, way.” The Lord wanted us to see
that adoption was as important as having a baby naturally. We would just
go through the process differently. Our journey of faith required us to
lay down our preconceived mindsets about the way our family would expand.
To start the adoption process,
we gathered information from the computer, family, and friends. Our path
led us to meet and interact with many people. Adoption has its own
timeframe, not just nine months. With a natural birth, there are no
choices—boy or girl, ethnicity, etc.—but with adoption we had an unending
list of characteristics to choose. The list reminded me of buying a
car—what color, size, accessories, etc., did we want?
Along our journey, we did
experience some miracles. One such event happened when we had to travel to
the highway patrol office in Jefferson City to renew our background check.
Cristen and I arranged to get off work and made the three-hour drive only
to discover the office closed for Abraham Lincoln’s birthday. We were
shocked, thinking we came all that way and would not be able to process
our background check. However, an officer told us that the lady who
processes the background checks was in doing some overtime work and would
be glad to help us; we got our background checks processed that day. God
is a good God.
We finished all the required
paperwork—background checks, financial records, recommendations, proof of
employment, etc.—and then the waiting game began. We thought we would be
getting a baby girl from Texas or California.
We got our first call, and to
our amazement, it was for a baby boy right here in Springfield, Missouri.
We were thrilled that it was local and was more than satisfied that it was
a boy. But the more we got involved, the more it looked like the
biological father did not want to release this boy; so we laid that case
down. This was the first of several possible adoptions, and we have a
special place in our heart for, and pray for, all of the kids we were not
allowed to have for our own.
Another one came up, this time
in Houston, Texas, a little girl. We got the information on her mother and
waited. When she delivered the baby, we flew down there. The baby was a
tiny little thing in an incubator. Her biological mother was very quiet.
She let us hold the baby, but through difficult circumstances, the aunt
(who had initiated the adoption process) saw the little girl and helped
change the mother’s mind. It broke our hearts; that trip back from Houston
to Springfield was a long one. We had told all of our family about the
Houston baby, and now we would have to report that it did not go through.
This case taught us that we should wait until we had a child before
telling everyone we knew. Otherwise, everyone will go on the rollercoaster
ride with us.
We got another call on a mother
who was to have a baby in Dallas. She was only a few months along and had
selected us. We called her about once a month and felt the Holy Spirit
leading us to ask to meet her face to face. The arrangements were made for
us to meet her and the social worker. We took some vacation time, got down
there, and she was a no-show. The social worker found out that she had
moved without telling us or the social worker and had decided to keep the
baby.
Through all the ups and downs,
God gave us hope and peace. We have always had a great support from our
church and family. Pastor Clark and his wife Christi met with us many
times.
We got our fourth case; this
time the mother was in St. Louis and due within the month, around the same
time the Dallas baby would have been born. I had scheduled a six-week
vacation for the Dallas baby’s arrival and had not rescheduled it. Our St.
Louis baby was born only one day earlier than when my vacation started.
The birthmother wanted to meet
us and offered to let us see the birth. When she went into labor, we
quickly drove to St. Louis, only to find that she was still unsure. We
spent the next few hours answering her questions and reassuring her that
we were more than ready to adopt her child. When the birth finally took
place, we were allowed to be in the room when the baby boy was born. The
nurse took him and talked to us like we were the parents! We were so awed.
We then had to leave when visiting hours were over, but we were on cloud
nine!
The following morning, the
social worker called before we got to the hospital and said that the
birthmother was upset about something. The social worker wanted us to meet
with her before going in to see the baby. We were devastated… here we go
again. As we were driving to the hospital, we prayed for a miracle, and
the Lord gave us peace through our tears.
We met with the social worker
and followed her instructions. She told us to be patient; she felt the
birthmother was, in her own way, saying goodbye to the baby. Two days
after his birth, we got to take our baby Brian home with us! Praise the
Lord!
For all the
promises of God in Him are Yes, and in Him Amen, to the glory of God
through us (2 Cor. 1:20).
Jeffrey Farinha is a physical therapist
for Cox Health Systems in Springfield, Missouri.

INDWELLING SPIRIT
By Paul Gabbert
Holy Spirit:
The River of Life
The Promised Comforter
The Spirit of Truth
Always testifying of Christ
Sent from the Father through the Son
Has now come to dwell with me and in me
To empower me to perform His ministry.
As I submit my will to His discipline,
He will reveal my Father’s will
Through His written Word and direct revelation.
Trinity plus adopted son in perfect union,
His plan and purpose for all eternity
All because of His infinite mercy and grace.
He’s the Author and Finisher of my faith,
Until Christ be formed in me.
Paul Gabbert owns and operates R & P
Cleaning Service.

It Is No Longer I Who Live
By Shari Walker
Growing up, I was a
“performer.” I believed if I did things right and did the right things, I
would like myself, and so would God and others. When I was in my early
thirties, the Lord allowed (although I didn’t know it was His doing at the
time) my “performing well and doing good” to hit a brick wall. My marriage
was failing, my parenting skills weren’t working, and I had serious
physical and emotional problems. During this downward spiral, I went from
doctor to doctor and counselor to counselor, read self-help books, and
prayed—but things only got worse. I came to the point where the great
“performer” that I was couldn’t decide what can of green beans to buy at
the grocery store. I finally despaired of life itself and became
hospitalized.
At this lowest point in my life—when I could not perform or do good—the
Lord revealed Himself to me and let me know He loved and cared for me
unconditionally. This was the great divide of my life. I experienced what
Paul was talking about in Galatians 2:20 when he said,
I have been
crucified with Christ; it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me;
and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of
God, who loved and gave Himself for me.
I had been in church all my
life but never heard this great co-crucifixion truth. I only knew Jesus
had died for me—not that I died with Him. I knew His substitution cleared
me of my sins so I could be with Him after I died, but I needed something
to allow me to live NOW. My desire to die to who I was had already been
accomplished about 2000 years earlier. I didn’t have to cope with the “old
me” or my problems any longer. I wanted a new life, and He had already
accomplished that for me—I just didn’t know it! The Holy Spirit began
showing me that the new creation truths that Paul wrote about were true
for me.
I understood that I had released tremendous powers in the wrong spiritual
realm. My negative thinking, speaking, and doing almost destroyed my
family and me. The Lord began teaching me that in His kingdom and by His
Holy Spirit, positive power released through His thoughts, words, and
actions will bring deliverance, healing, and wholeness. As I abandoned
myself to Him and His love, He made that darkest time of life my greatest
blessing.
The Holy Spirit has now placed
my family and me with a local group of believers where the pastors teach
God’s thoughts and ways and the power of our identification with Christ.
We are accountable to each other to think, speak, and do His truths on a
daily basis. Yes, God has and continues to exchange His life for mine!
Shari Walker is an administrative
assistant at Greene County Extension in Springfield, Missouri.

A Paradigm Shift
By Byron Hamilton
Have you ever had one of those
serendipity moments when you go through a fundamental paradigm shift? It
happened to me during a recent Wednesday night Bible study at church. My
only response was, “Wow!”
We were studying the person and
ministry of the Holy Spirit. Jesus had told the distressed disciples:
…It is to your
advantage that I go away; for if I do not go away, the Helper will not
come to you; but if I depart, I will send Him to you. And when He has
come, He will convict the world of sin, and of righteousness, and of
judgment: of sin, because they do not believe in Me; of righteousness,
because I go to My Father and you see Me no more;
of
judgment, because the ruler of this world is judged
(John 16:7-11).
I had read and studied this
passage several times. It was always an enigma to me because although I
comprehended the Holy Spirit convicting the world of sin, I did not
understand how He convicted the world of righteousness and what that had
to do with Jesus going to the Father. I felt very much like the disciples
to whom Jesus further stated:
I still have
many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now. However,
when He, the Spirit of truth, has come, He will guide you into all truth …
(John 16:12-13).
As our pastor expounded on this
passage, it became clear to me that the Holy Spirit’s ministry is to the
church not to the world. Why would He try to convict the world of
righteousness if they did not receive Him? The purpose of the Spirit of
Truth is to dwell in the believers and guide them. Jesus
said:
And I will pray
the Father, and He will give you another Helper, that He may abide with
you forever—the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot receive,
because it neither sees Him nor knows Him; but you know Him, for He
dwells with you and will be in you (John 14:16-17).
I began to see that Jesus’
statement regarding the Holy Spirit’s ministry to convict of sin,
righteousness, and judgment was actually directed to the church.
The Greek word for convict
(elenchō) can be translated
effectively as convince. It’s the same word that is used when
speaking of unbelievers coming into a church assembly, hearing prophesy,
and being convinced that God is present. The convincing ministry of
the Holy Spirit is what makes believers from those in the world.
But if an
unbeliever or someone who does not understand comes in while everybody is
prophesying, he will be convinced (elenchō)
by all that he is a sinner and will be judged by all, and the
secrets of his heart will be laid bare. So he will fall down and worship
God, exclaiming, “God is really among you!” (1 Cor. 14:24-25 NIV).
Once the unbeliever has been
convinced of his spiritually lost state and enters the kingdom of God, the
Holy Spirit begins the work of convincing the new believer of
righteousness. The apostle Paul states:
Therefore, if
anyone is in Christ, he
is a new creation; old things have passed away; behold, all
things have become new.... For He made Him who knew no sin to be
sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him
(2 Cor. 5:17, 21).
The Holy Spirit reveals to the
believer that he is made righteous—not by his own works but by receiving
God’s righteousness through the Holy Spirit. This righteous state exists
because Jesus went to the Father enabling the Holy Spirit to bring His
righteous presence into the believer’s life. This was not possible while
Jesus was still physically present with His disciples. Thus, He stated:
the Holy Spirit would convince “of righteousness, because I go to My
Father and you see Me no more…” (John 16:10). He further explained:
At that day
(the day of Pentecost) you will know that I am in My Father,
and you in Me, and I in you… If anyone loves Me, he will keep My word; and
My Father will love him, and We will come to him and make Our home with
him (John 14:20, 23).
Lastly, Jesus stated the Holy
Spirit would convince “of judgment, because the ruler of this
world is judged” (John 16:11). This statement has nothing to do with
the Holy Spirit convincing the world it is under judgment. Jesus Himself
had previously declared:
For God did not
send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the
world through Him might be saved (John 3:17).
Jesus also said, “I did not
come to judge the world but to save the world” (John 12:47b).
The Holy Spirit’s ministry is
to the church. Jesus is affirming that the Spirit will convince the church
that the devil has been judged.
John stated:
…For this
purpose the Son of God was manifested, that He might destroy the works of
the devil (1 John 3:8).
This was accomplished at the
cross when Jesus “disarmed principalities and powers; He made a public
spectacle of them, triumphing over them in the cross” (Col. 2:15).
This is undoubtedly one of the greatest challenges of the Holy Spirit,
i.e. to convince God’s people that the devil has been defeated.
After so many years, this
passage finally made sense to me. Jesus said the Holy Spirit “will
glorify Me, for He will take of what is Mine and declare it to
you” (John 16:14).
I realized Jesus sent the Holy
Spirit to:
a) convince
the unbeliever of sin, in order that he/she will believe in Jesus,
b) convince
the believer of righteousness, because Jesus would indwell the believer,
and,
c)
convince the believer of the devil’s judgment, because Jesus has
defeated the ruler of the world.
Byron Hamilton and his
wife Leesa own Med-Soft National Training Institute in Springfield,
Missouri.

THE
AUTHOR OF MY LIFE
By Denise Shoemaker
God has shown me a lot about my
life by comparing it to a book.
When I entered college, I
viewed God as sort of an editor. I believed very firmly that He had a plan
for my life. I had no doubt that God had called me to be a teacher and
that He wanted me to get my education at Southwest Baptist University in
Bolivar, Missouri. In my understanding, He had an overview for my life and
was concerned about the big things but wasn’t that interested in my
day-to-day life. I felt that there were other people whom God would be
more involved with personally, namely pastors or others with a “ministry.”
I visualized God as an editor for my life in the sense that He made sure
the book got put together, but He didn’t do the actual writing.
In college, I met people who
believed God wanted a personal relationship with everyone every day.
Although I found that idea interesting, I still wasn’t sure God really
wanted to be involved in directing my daily life. Then one night I had a
dream. I was in a dressing room when there was a knock on the door. I
opened it, and there stood Jesus. He came into the room and started
talking to me. I was so excited that I left the room to find someone who
could tell me what Jesus was saying. In the hall, I realized I had walked
out on Jesus while He was talking to me! As I re-entered the room, I was
enveloped in the warmth of His smile and peace as He welcomed me back.
God wanted to speak to me; He
wanted to be involved in my life. He didn’t want to be the editor in the
background. He desired to reveal Himself to me as the author of my life
and faith.
Looking unto Jesus, the
author and finisher of our faith…(Heb.
12:2).
God put my relationships and
experiences in an order meant for me—just as an author puts words together
to create meaning. Those words are picked carefully, just as God carefully
and personally ordered my life.
Living each day with my Author
eliminates the anxiety of what might happen next. I know He is going to
finish what He’s started.
…He who has begun a good
work in you will complete it… (Phil. 1:6).
Denise Shoemaker teaches seventh
grade English in Bolivar, Missouri.